The access

They practice to cut me off

Society needs me

But I cannot feed the hologram

SCREAM !

If all else fails, someone heard the yell

Insides voice the belly of what’s beneath

Swept the demons of deceit behind closed horrors

Keys open old doors

To the more that is behind she

Ill

Kin

Nigga

Sin

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